How R U

He started up again this week. I know he was only doing this to see where my head is at. It's the ridiculous, but passionate, thing we can't even call a relationship. He is king of his world, and maybe he knows it. It's years now of something well beyond flirtation that is crazy sexy cool. If we gave it a chance (against all odds) it would probably blow up in our faces, or, be the best thing ever. But alas, he has her. I think sometimes she knows (does she?) and it's not something I'm proud of. So it doesn't go farther, but damn, it already reached that far enough, over-the-top, we-shouldn't-do-this level. Still, we don't stop...